~edit~
sorry to bother anyone, but i thought i'd clarify the situation since i have the time right now (on comp in school, no one to talk to)-
(warning: ranting in the following edit)
i have moved schools, away from everyone i use to know
my mother now goes through my stuff at least once a fortnight
she had gotten a hold on my USB
and deleted anything not classified as useful data and related to school
there goes more then 5 years of my artistic pieces of works
and now i dont even have a scanned drawing, because she threw away all the ones i had left
so all the work i was planning to post on DA is now reduced to nothing
my computer has been terminated to the garage and im not allowed to touch my mother's
only good thing about coming to this other school is
a) deviantart works, for now
b)hotmail works, for now
c) msn works, for now
d) unlimited printing (color+black and white)
so i still can contact people at school
anyone wanting to know when i will be on msn just ask in a comment
i have to say, life isnt very good right now
the other day i bought a little tin box of mints, twas cute ^^ on the cover it said death mints
i guess it was at this time that it hit me, if it really was a suicide pill i would have taken it straight away
death mints
if they were real i would have chosen to die
i know i sound like im crying for help or what ever
but i've been through hell and back even though you dont know it
i live through it almost every day
now i just have to make it through one year and hope to move away from the female hades that has her chain on me
i miss everyone
i know im lazy and havent commented on anyone's deviation for some time
i have no excuse to be honest
i miss everyone
its funny
im sitting in a library full of people
and yet
alone is what it feels like
alone is what i wish to be
but sometimes it doesnt even work anymore
because the pain's too strong to feel it
i just really have to one to talk to
my brother thinks im emo
i guess ranting is weird
but this is my only outlet for now
i miss everyone
i guess my journal was before on the account that i no longer had access to a computer, but i guess that changed
im still taking IT so thats good
and the library is open
i think i might go crazy if i dont talk to anyone
millie if you read this can you call me.....
or fllay if you read this too
i miss all you guys
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due to certain incidents and implications
(especially in 'real' life)
i am reluctant to further spend any time on DA
and also unable to spend any more time on DA
my apologies to all
you have my sincerities when i say this
so until further notice i will not be appearing on DA

sorry everyone
love you all
rave